Working mom?

I am not exactly a stay at home mom… I am on maternity leave from my day job. Here in Canada we get 1 year off… its really nice and does make us feel like we are stay at home moms… until it ends.

My time ends in December, and so now I am trying to figure out what I am going to do… can I be a working mom with 3 kids under 4?

I have a project that I am working on right now, which is taking up most of my time. I am getting an idea of what life is going to be like as a working mom… I don’t think I like it! There are working moms who make it look easy, and some are really great at balancing everything, but I don’t know if its for me.

Frustrated. Tired, actually exhausted. Constant headache. Very short temper. Almost vanishing milk supply. Little sleep. Too much screaming.

As my project only lasts a month, I am fine with it, I know there is an end, I know it does not happen often, I sometimes enjoy the change of pace, I know that I will be back to normal when I am done. But what’s going to become of me when I am working? And what’s going to become of my kids? I am not sure that I want to be on the verge of a nervous breakdown all the time!

Is it worth it?