Functional

Yesterday I thought I was having a heart attack, seriously – I even told my sister to call 911 for me – but we both had our doubts about it really being that serious. After about 5 minutes I started to feel a bit better and decided to go to a walk-in clinic.

On Sunday night, I had a similar thing happen to me and could not sleep – I think it was after 3am that I managed to finally fall asleep. All weekend I felt a tightness in my chest and a general feeling of “unwell” – I really didn’t know what was happening to me, and I still don’t know for sure, but I do feel better today.

The doctor thinks that I have anxiety and suffered from a panic attack. I don’t know what to think because I don’t feel particularly anxious nor do I feel like I am in a panic-y kind of a mood.

I said to the doctor that I didn’t think I had a reason to feel anxiety and his ‘professional’ opinion was that all women, at some point, suffer from anxiety. I believe him. I guess that although there is not one specific thing really worrying me, everything just adds up.

For the past couple months, my husband and I have been playing squash and it’s been great, but we didn’t play in the last 3 weeks, and I think that I just didn’t realize how important it was for me to have that “release mechanism” in my life. Of course, I am just speculating, because I don’t know the cause of the problem for certain, but I feel that it was not cool of me to deny myself that mental escape.

Anyone else anxious?