I'll take a lot of love, but only a little happiness

I love that my heart is filled with love.
It means that it is full of compassion and humanity.
It means also that sometimes it is filled with the opposite of happiness… because how can we feel love without feeling hurt?

I fear that too much happiness may make me forget about God.
With a little happiness, I will surely be thankful.
With a little happiness, I will surely still feel sympathy.
With a little happiness, my heart can surely remain full of love.

When I feel the opposite of happiness, I hold tight to God, I appreciate the little things in life, the small mercies, the miracle of my babies changing into men little by little everyday.

When I feel the opposite of happiness, I see clearly, I am reminded that this life does end, and that I hope my true happiness is being saved for me in a better place.

When I feel the opposite of happiness, I know that I still have humanity, I know that I still care.

I know that while my world suffers from injustice, hate, and indifference, I can never feel bliss.

I know that I feel love, and that is better for me.

Everyday news from my home country makes me so sad, this is dedicated to the victims. Read just one of the stories.

Thoughts from Jen

I do not share your faith, and so I think I’ll take all the happiness I can get. But it is a message to make you think about what is important.  Thanks for sharing, and Happy Love Thursday!

Thoughts from mokey

you know shaz….this is truly just one example of what goes on here in Trinidad…it gets so much worse…it makes me wonder if the rest of the world actually knows what’s going on here…women being kidnapped and gang raped by not just one group of men but several and they (the men)actually act out their sick ‘fantasies’ with these women….how nasty…there’s no other word to describe it all…you become a prisoner in your own home…my son lacks the freedom i had known as a child…i ask myself everyday ‘is this right?’...everything now is all about race….this is not cool at all

Thoughts from Maliha

Salamaat,
a little happiness coupled with a lot of love; is such an awesome combination.

keep loving even when the world just seems too crazy to bear.

Thoughts from Mona UmIbrahim

salam Shazia, this is so sad to read. I can’t imagine it, yet they say it could happen to anybody – especially children. Alhamdulillah she was able to get back to her family safely. May Allah protect us all.

Thoughts from Pastormac's Ann

Wonderfully written, Shaz.

Thoughts from crunchy carpets

Good grief..I didn’t know that went on down there.

I hear about that in south america all the time and how casual people are about it now…it is a business….sheesh.

Thoughts from shaz

Jen, I wish you all the happiness! I just feel like I can really never be totally happy because of all the horrible things that happen in the world!

Mokey, my cousin emailed me a terrible story of another victim… I just don’t know what to say about what’s happening in trinidad.

aww Maliha, you are my inspiration, you know that!

Mona, the things that happen to children are horrific, you would not believe it. I can’t go into the details because it is really more than I can handle, but it’s a very bad situation.

Thanks Ann I somehow knew you would appreciate this one!

crunchy, trinidad was never like this before when I lived there, it got terrible this past few years. It is very sad and disturbing, but I don’t know what the solution is :(

Thoughts from mokey

solution shaz…..ppl just need to grow up and realise what the big picture is…..love, living each day as if it mattered….appreciate each other and look beyond our ethnic background…

Thoughts from Irene

beautiful entry Shaz.

Thoughts from Suroor

This is a very beautiful post!

Thoughts from shaz

I would love to see that happen mokey!

thanks Irene and Suroor.