The clean

So, yesterday was “clean up” day at work, and I must say that the amount of paper that people store in their workstations is truly fascinating to me! Since I had all of one piece of paper to “sort through”, I thought I would take the time to photograph my desk for you, because I know that you’re just sitting there wondering what it looks like!

Behold!

Everyday I try new medication – sadly, nothing has worked thus far, and on Monday when I had to leave work very early, on account of the whole wanting-to-stab-my-eye-out-pain, all I could think was that I didn’t get to have Pad Thai, because some how my stomach convinced my brain that everything would be all better if only I could have some yummy food, in the form of spicy rice noodles of course! Well, yesterday, I braved the bright sunlight, and dangerous roads, went across the street to the express Thai food place with the ridiculously long lines, and got myself some Pad Thai, and I think that my stomach was probably right, cuz I did feel better after!

I haven’t had coffee or tea since Sunday though, because I feel like it may make my mucus situation worse, and my right eye is swollen, but other than that, I feel smashing! Thanks for your kinds words and “feel-better” thoughts!

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10 essential steps in finding happy

1) Wake up early and pray/meditate/contemplate before you start your day

2) Eat a banana. Seriously. Everyday. Religiously.

3) Only listen to happy music.

4) Do NOT watch the news.

5) Dance… or work-out… which ever you’re in the mood for. Everyday.

6) Smile a lot.

7) Cry, if you must, but not for too long, just until you feel better.

8) Sleep with your windows open.

9) Take longer than usual showers.

10) Make sure your offspring (niece/nephew/little people in your life) are very funny, then let them amuse you!

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A funny thing happened on the way to work…

This morning I woke up to the whispering of my little ones, and as I tried to focus on the time, I realized that at that very moment I should have been at work checking my emails! “Oh Crap!” I thought and then dragged myself to my computer so I could warn my boss of my inevitable and surely stupendous tardiness.

You know how I take the train to work right? Not the subway, but an actual, real train. Anyways, when I am on said train, I like to relax by listening to my iPod, putting up my feet, leaning my head on the window, and closing my eyes – it’s literally the one place that I feel like I can let go of all my responsibilities and just be – albeit for only 45 minutes, but you know, you take what you can!

This morning, however, I had to wonder if kindness was a blessing or a curse, as an old man decided to sit next to me and then proceeded to ask me question after question for most of the train ride, until he eventually fell asleep. He had previously attempted to speak to someone else on the train and when she blatantly ignored him, I assume that he thought my friendly disposition looked inviting and moved himself to the seat next to mine. He seemed so lost though, that I felt a lot sad for him, and as he realized that I was also going to be taking the subway and getting off at the same station as him, his face literally lit up!

I looked at him and thought of my grandfather, who sadly died of cancer some years ago, and I thought of how we all so dependent on one another, and how this man, who at one time probably traveled to places completely foreign to him and did not feel intimidated, was now totally overwhelmed merely by the city’s transit system. We got off the train and headed to the subway – it was a sloooooow walk – I talked to him along the way, reassuring him that it was totally ok that we were walking about a million miles slower than everyone around us, and then I smiled at how worried he was that everyone was so fast and he was not able to keep up, and how he kept looking at me, I imagine, to make sure that I didn’t leave him.

When we finally parted ways, after I had taken more than half and hour to do something that normally takes me less than 10 minutes, he looked at me and said that he had courage knowing that I was there with him… I was glad at that moment, to have this soft heart.

The kid has a point!

Question on TV show: How old do you wish you were?

Answer from one of the kids: A grown-up

My 5 year old: A grown-up? Ah haha! Why would she want to be a grown-up? That is sooo boring!

Thanks for all your kind words on my previous post… you know those times in life when you just really need a friend… not to talk necessarily, but to just be there… I may be going through one of those times. And thanks for being there!

The somewhat strange and bewildering melodrama of life

You know, sometimes I swear life is so totally stranger than fiction. Right?

I think I’ve said many times on this blog that I’ve always felt like my life was never my own, I always felt like I was being led down a path that I neither knew if I understood nor wanted, but I am of the belief that things occur as they are meant to, and although we all have our trials, in the end, I have faith that we get what is best for us.

I like to think that what’s important is not the bad things that happen to us, but the manner in which we choose deal with adversity. And although sometimes I tend to feel like life is just about the crappiest thing ever, usually I prefer to focus on the beauty of it, the moments of peace, the humanity, and I realize that without hardship, we probably won’t have the empathy that we have for one another, and what is a world without empathy?!

I love that life is such a journey, that the people that we interact with, if we let them, help us to grow, to learn, to change our perspectives, to experience things that we never knew we could.

I’ve been asked many times if I have regrets about the way my life turned out, and in all honesty, I believe that regret, like anger, is a wasted emotion, and of course there are things I would change if I had to do it over again, many, many things, but, had I not made those less than stellar decisions, I would not be the person I am today. To me, what really matters is that we learn from our past mistakes and we try to become better people.

I think you’ll agree that probably the one thing that almost everyone hopes to find in life is happiness, but to me happiness is a choice, it’s our ability to learn from the bad stuff, focus on the good stuff, smile, because smiles are great, and patiently have faith.

Now, choose to be happy!

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