Spend the day with me part 3

Unfortunately I only got 1 out of 3 kids to actually nap, so the other 2 have just been giving me a headache, because honestly, if I don’t have some time alone during the day, I tend to lose it slightly.

It’s now 3pm… since my last update, I tried to stay with the kids so that they would nap, but clearly patience is not my area of expertise, so I quickly gave up! At least the baby was asleep. I answered some more emails, while my kids again were talking very LOUDLY, and playing a game that involved phones, cameras and a gps, I washed some more dishes (does it ever end?), I served them some snacks, and now I am cooking some chicken nuggets, which I made with chicken breast and shake & bake. Oh, and I changed 2 more diapers. The fun never ends, let me tell you!

I also did catch up on some blogs, and I decided that right now I would much rather be here…

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Spend the day with me part 2

It’s now 12:25pm and I am trying to get my kids to take a nap… sadly, I am failing miserably! They are currently singing LOUDLY in the bedroom, as I type this and choose to ignore them.

So, let me not keep you in suspense any longer, after my last update, I changed 3 diapers, took the older 2 to the toilet at the same time (no, not on the same toilet, michelle), one upstairs and one downstairs. I watched them play “pretend to be grownups”, which in all honestly was one heck of an amazing game! I washed some more dishes, swept the floor, cleaned up, did a tiny bit of work, had a couple phone calls, and chatted on IM some more.

Wow, are you still awake?

I am going to argue with the kids a little now, be back soon!

Spend the day with me part 1

I’ve always wanted to live blog my day, mostly because the number one question that I get asked is “how do you do it all?”

It’s 8:45am as I type this, I am drinking coffee and making breakfast for the kids. I was up at 5:45am, which was a little late for me, but you know, a girl needs to sleep! Before the kids woke up, I responded to some client emails, chatted on instant messaging to a friend about some personal health issues, and consulted with Dr. Google, got mad with the apparent incompetence of Adobe’s customer support people, made a couple small tweaks to a website that I am working on, and then by 7am, the kids were up.

My eldest is sick, so I cuddled with him in bed for a bit while they watched early morning cartoons, and the other 2 had their bottles (yes, the 3 year old has a bottle still…). Once we were downstairs, I washed up some dishes (because, really, I am too exhausted at the end of the day!), while the kids were playing something with large, plastic spoons and throw pillows!

It’s now 9am, this kids are eating, and talking, LOUDLY, and I am pondering the most excellent day that I am sure to have!

I know that you’ll be at the edge of your seat in anticipation for the next update, I mean, clearly I lead a thrilling and exciting life, but please try to have patience, I’ll be back soon!

Coming back to me

For the past 5 years I’ve been pretty much pregnant, breastfeeding, or suffering for some sort of postpartum stress, and as is common with so many of us, I lost myself to motherhood.

Since my last pregnancy, a little more than 2 years ago, I’ve been wearing this exact same pair of DKNY running shoes, yes, through rain, sleet and snow even. I think I’ve even worn them to a wedding once! What’s sad about this is that I love shoes, seriously I.LOVE.SHOES, yet, for the past 5ish years I’ve completely worn out about 3 pairs of shoes and they all look pretty much like the one above.

Last week I looked at my shoes and thought about me, I thought that I can barely recognize myself anymore, I wondered why I get so emotional over the simplest things, I stressed over all the responsibilities that now belonged to me, but most of all I decided that I need new shoes!

You know when I was a non-mommy, I was obsessed with making sure my skin was not dry, so obsessed that I would put both vaseline and baby oil on at night, and now I don’t even use lotion! Surely being a mommy does not means that we need to neglect ourselves… go do something nice for yourself right now! As for me, I’m going to buy new shoes, and perhaps lotion.

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Talk to me and the hypocrite within

I like to think that I am an honest person, and most of the time I am, but sometimes, on particularly frustrating days, I think to myself, if my blog readers can see me now, they would probably feel so betrayed! Please accept my apologies for that, I don’t mean to misrepresent myself, it just happens.

In many ways my blog identity is my true identity, I’ve chosen to be my ‘real’ self online which does have its advantages, but also its challenges, and one of the biggest challenges I face is living up to being the mom that I write about in my blog, you know, the mom who can entertain her kids and not get frustrated, the mom who knows how to work from home efficiently, the mom who cooks everyday, the well adjusted wife even.

A while ago I made a decision to try to be inspirational on this blog, to try to help other parents, to add value where I could, and if I had to rant, it would be to open the topic up for discussion and hopefully get to a point where we can all benefit from potential solutions. This meant that on days when I just wanted to scream about how crappy being a mother was, I was forced to write about the more positive aspects, which in general worked out well because it helped me to get over the difficulties and focus on a solutions instead, but did have the distinct disadvantage of making me into a hypocrite at times.

My husband is on a 2 day business trip, and this morning I had the wonderful job of getting all 3 kids fed, cleaned, and dressed so I could take the eldest 2 to school, sadly, I completely lost it and started screaming for them to stop running around with only one shoe and concentrate on what they were supposed to be doing! It was not that it was particularly stressful, but I didn’t take my own advice about routines and schedules, being late was my own fault, being unprepared was my own fault, and ultimately, I didn’t “do as I say”!

I know that most of you would consider me to be a good mom, but at times I feel so unworthy . Do you find that it’s sometimes hard to live up to your parenting ideals or follow your own advice?